June?!?...

It is June!! (I know we are already almost half way through!!!) It's hard to believe that we are half-way through the year already! As I have laready mentioned before June is busy and holds alot of things in it. 1)We leave tomorrow for camp and thankfully I am packed =) all of my s are packed =) and I can't wait to see what the Lord is going to do. 2) Yesterday was a year from my last chemo treatment! This brings up the subject of babies..... I have been reading my S-I-L blog and she reminds me of why I want to be pregnant again! I want that excitement! But I do not want to forget my son! Next month it will have been two years since he was born and passed away. The other night a lady was making comments about how David and I have been married three years and have no children! I told her we have one and she made it sound like that wasn't good enough! But what if it is?!? What if that is all God intends for us to have?! I am okay with that! Yes I want more but if I have the pleasure of having one perfect and I do mean perfect little boy-than thank the Lord that is all I need! I can honestly say that I have THE Perfect child! In every sense of the word he is perfect and so is the one who created him! I am not going to question God's will ( and Lord willing I still won't if I don't get pregnant). His timing is perfect and he has a reason for every thing! So I am praying extra hard for the patience to deal with the people since we have reached the one year mark and are able to start trying-I don't ever want to push people away becuase they don't realize what they are saying is hurtful "Be ye therefore merciful just as your father is merciful" (Paraphrase) =) Speaking of which-to the two main people who read my blog-I am sorry I have bugged you about finding out the gender of your baby, you do as you wish and I will support you wholeheartedly!!!
So that is my vent for today! =) I will hopefully be able to post some pictures after camp! Have a great week!

Update- 6/9/09

Somtimes I feel like all I ever do is get on here and vent =} oh well I guess that is what blogs are for right?! Just an update... I had my labs this month and my numbers came back good!! I have two more if I don't get pregnant first. This friday it will have been one year since my last chemo treatment and thank the Lord nothing else has come up. A couple of weeks ago I thought maybe something might have been wrong and so did my doctor but we did a couple of x-rays and everything came back okay-it seems I just bruised my ribs and the cartilidge in my chest. (I seem to do that often-second time this year!) We are getting ready to take our teens up to camp this next week and I am praying hard that the Lord will reach our teens and make a huge change. Something I learned from last year is to pray and ask for a change in me also. I am excited to have Bro. Woodcock again and to hear what the Lord has laid on his heart and the heart of the other speakers! After camp David and I are looking into taking a trip in July to see if we can't get some ideas for VBS for our church. I can't wait to see what the rest of the year holds and what the Lord has in store for our lives!